I hope you’re all well. Yes, I’ve started a new blog. My last, platinumlatte (as much as I loved it), was so all over the place – a lil like me. I haven’t been doing to good.. I know anxiety never really leaves you but I lost control of it just when I thought I had it where I wanted it and it all came back like a hole in the head, leaving me back at square one. I found myself questioning everything I was doing, losing a lot of sleep overthinking everything the day gave me and worrying what the next day would bring. Paranoid beyond belief.. I thought everyone hated me, hates a VERY strong word and to think you’re hated is an awful feeling – I’m well aware I’m not but emotionally the feeling is terrifying. The paranoia was the worst.. I found myself opening my little shell and climbing back in hoping people wouldn’t notice. I was apologising for annoying people even though they assured me time after time I wasn’t annoying them. Apologising for everything, so much sorry lost all meaning in my head. I stopped socialising and IF I did my head was everywhere thinking people were judging me. It hasn’t been nice to feel all this again just when I thought I had it all under control – so before it got worse I decided it was time to nip this damn thing in the bud and work my way back up to being me. A new blog, a new journey and the real me.
On The Rocks
I’ve named my new blog, On The Rocks. Reason being – I’m a whisky gal and we drink our whiskey .. On The Rocks (with ice). Did you know.. one of my biggest fears was ice!? I couldn’t even look at ice never mind open the freezer, eat an ice cream or having it with a drink! Since drinking whiskey.. I overcome that fear. – Whiskey makes me feel safe, happy & confident.
On The Rocks also means.. with difficulty & breaking down which I’ve experienced a lot in my life. So here’s to the journey of being yourself & doing it confidently…
…This is where it all begins. My first step to being true to myself was doing something I’ve wanted to do for years, yet too afraid to do, caring so much what others think. Telling myself not to do the things I want because of what others may say. I dyed my hair silver!!! And you know what?! I feel great! I didn’t even hold back, I just picked up the dye (shwarzkopf – metallic silver) – went home & did it!
So this Newness will be me finally being me. A lifestyle blog which is also going to help me on this mission!
Hope you’re all having a great day! Looking forward to reading some of your material with a coffee!