Hiya – Happy New Year!
First, i hope your year started positively. Mine did and I’m very grateful as throughout last year my anxiety just took over.. I’m not saying it’s vanished but I know I’m handling it much better. My goal is to gain confidence, as I’ve heard Time after time, “she loves herself”, “poser” blah fucking blah. Confidence has always been an issue for me. And however much I don’t want the feeling of “not giving a shit”, cause I do give a shit, I’ve always gave a shit cause I’m an emotional, passionate person.. I do want to love and care about myself a lil more.
Beginning with dressing for me. I’ve always loved dressing up but thought to much about what people would think if I left the house like this. I’d find myself thinking about the hundreds of people I’d pass, not having a clue who they are or they, me and thinking what they’d say. I guess this shit comes from being bullied.. and not standing up for myself. I was bullied for 12 years, because I was different, The I looked, dressed,the music I listened to, etc, and it’s took me to the age of 25 to realise… I haven’t seen any of the assholes in 10 years and look where I’m at now.. why should I still let that awful feeling hit me to just recent.
Next step: If I feel good, I’m wearing it. No one can tell me how to feel good and no one can tell me what to wear but me. So my hair is silver, my leather is new and my boots are studded. The goal I’ve set for 2018 is to love me cause I’m a good gal, I’d do anything for anyone. If you’re crying I’ll make you laugh, If I don’t make you laugh I’ll cry with you till you feel better. I don’t have to change me .. I just have to appreciate myself a lil more.
- Leather – Miss Selfridge.
- Bralette – Victoria’s Secret.
- Body Suit – Zara.
- Belt – Primark.
- Denim – Mango.
- Boots – Dorothy Perkins.
Dress It Down.
Sweats – Converse.
If you guys have any advice please share. I’m hoping I’m heading in the right direction.
Have a great day